Saturday, August 28, 2010
Those days that i remembered...
Hi.
Just came back from EastPoint with mum.
On the way back home, i thought of something.
So, here goes...
Mum, do you remember those days when i fell ill?
I had asthma attack. A really bad one.
It was so crucial to me cause i had breathing problems.
You tried your best to make me feel comfortable.
I felt quite better after that.
At night, i would sleep beside you. So that you can watch out for me.
I felt safe. Cause you were there, beside me.
I still had breathing problems. I had this, hissing sound whenever i can't breathe properly.
I knew you felt irritated while sleeping. But you didn't complain.
The next day, you brought me to see a doctor.
You paid those medical bills.
I didn't think of anything. But now i know, you used quite alot of money just to buy those medicines for me to eat so that i feel better.
After a few days, i felt better. I thought i was not sick anymore.
And so, i bought ice-cream or some cold stuff.
Which i'm not supposed to eat, when i have asthma.
And then, you found out about it. Cause dad told you.
You scolded me. You were angry. And i felt guilty.
I didn't know what to do. Cause i was primary 4.
But now i know. You scolded me cause you care for me.
I still remembered that we didn't talk for days.
I felt really sad. And still guilty.
I tried to talk to you, but it seemed like you ignored me.
But now i know. Deep inside your heart, you still love me.
Sometimes, i heard you cry. You might not know this.
And you cried, because of me. I felt more sad.
But then, after a few days, you felt better. And so am i.
I said sorry and hugged you. I felt relieved.
And i always thought about this. And sometimes, i felt ashamed.
Now, to think of it, I have done alot of things.
Wrong things, that made you mad.
I'm sorry mum. (':
Even if i typed this whole, long post, i know you can't read it.
And the reason why i post this is because,
I can't say all these things to you when i seek for your forgiveness when Hari Raya comes.
So, that's all i wanted to say.
I know this long post is damn random and long. Did i mention long?
Anyway, so yeah. That's all.
And, sorry for not updating.
BYE.